Do you make lists? I started to a few years ago. I found myself losing the never ending comparison game and while my list was pretty lame – I will say it served it’s purpose and gave me a good dose of reality I was missing. I didn’t continue with my lists but then . . . A few years ago I read “One Thousand Gifts” by Ann Voskamp. it reminded me of a good habit to keep – REMEMBERING.
There is something that happens when our hearts remember. We know it to be true of heartache. Sometimes all we need is a scent or a phrase, and that heartache from years ago is felt immediately. So why can’t the same be true for the “happy” “hopeful” moments our hearts and minds need? I accredit Ann Voskamp’s “One Thousand Gifts”, for giving me a gracious look at what a heart full of thanksgiving can do – not only for a healthy perspective on your life, but also as a tool to help us grow during the yo-yo parts of life.
Yo-yo parts of life? Yes – the highs and lows. How was your July? My July, was filled with spots of anxiety and lots of contemplation. . .
- summer transitions for our little one
- contemplations on some decisions my husband is making in his life
- 12 year old discussing how he doesn’t really want to go back to school in about 3 1/2 weeks. . .and the list goes on and on and on. . .
Yet, also somewhere in the middle and towards the end, I got some incredible pockets (as I refer to them) of happiness. . .
- I got an “I love you” from our precious daughter, and a happy birthday!
- Reminded of how hard our son worked during the school year improving on a subject
- Spent time with my missionary friend who is here from Uganda on furlough
- Hearing all about the amazing, wonderful things God is doing in and through her
- Saw an amazing Broadway show!
- Attended a dream concert, sang along and danced with an 8 year old
- And so many other pocket full of happiness moments!
When I reflect on July, two things specifically come to my mind:
1. I not only dislike the yo-yo parts of my life but I’m also afraid of them. Food for thought right here!
2. How resilient deeply rooted faith can make you feel!!! Totally reignited.
(Please don’t misunderstand, I’m not doing cartwheels or even jumping up and down. No. No. ) I have experienced a boost that is needed every now and then to remember and walk out, live by faith. . . How?
➢ remembering – He is good!
➢ no matter what – God is with us!
I may not have it altogether, or all planned out and even if I did my heart and mind– still may not be prepared for the end result. Faith in God provides the footing I need to not be struck down by disappointment or paralyzed by fear and what ifs.
While in my head I know the power that can be found through prayer and faith, when the yo-yo parts of life strike I’m not always found pressing on in my faith, or on my knees trying to cling on. Sometimes I am exhausted because I’ve been trying too hard on my own. It is in those yo-yo parts that I can wallow or I can try my best to remember. Remembering does require effort, but oh it is so worth it! It not only forces my gaze up but something literally happens and my heart is overwhelmed by His glorious light not just once but again and again and again. I am renewed. Reignited.
Isn’t that amazing? Isn’t that glorious? Isn’t that just like Jesus to remind us that we cannot do it alone because too quickly we forget, He’s holding it all together.
Father, thank you for the yo-yo parts of our lives. It reminds us in the simplest of ways that You do, make all things beautiful and new and that includes our hearts too. I ask that You help us, be less afraid of the yo-yo parts of our lives and more in awe of You! Amen.
“When you go through deep waters,
I will be with you.
When you go through rivers of difficulty,
you will not drown.
When you walk through the fire of oppression,
you will not be burned up;
the flames will not consume you.”